wow i haven't written in here in forever and a day!! (lyrics from always and forever hahah' forever and a day) neway... i am in a good mood at the moment...earlier i was not...but no i am! i was so stressing for like a week uptill now! because now i dont have to worry about math and stuff... i dont want to get into boring details about math =( hahah but now im worried about music theory...i have NO idea what i have in that class...but the lowest ill get (im guessing) is a C...and with 2 c's and 4 a's and one of those c's being an AP class so it'll be a b on my report card...i'll have a 3.5 which im very happy with! i'd like something higher..but what are u gonna do?

tomorrow is a half day! but i gotta stay afterschool thanx to music theory -_- then thursday is a half day!!! and me and diva are gonna wash my car afterward, that should be super fuN!

then friday we gonna get our nails done cause formal is saturday...t

hen SAturday is a busy day...at 8 in the morning i have the DLA and thats till 12, then me and diva will go to lunch, then we'll go get our hair done cause we got an appt at 1 and 1:45...then formal is at 7, and im driving me d and krys...so im excited...well actualy i was alot mORE excited, but my excitment has been going down...well last year me and hilarie had so much fun, and this year shes going with her bf, but hopefully we'll have fun...

man i haven't really had a conversation with her since christmas break... well okay i talked to her for like 1/2 an hour last week...does that count? then before christmas break i hadnt talked to her for like a month...so i fell that i only have 1 best friend... cause i haven't talked to lauren in about 8 months, and hilarie is busy so i talk to her an average of something like 5 minutes a day...MAYBE...on a good day... that depresses me...but thats the way life is and i gotta accept the fact ill prolly only have 1 friend forever hahah...

so depressingly true =( like the depressing truth that no guys like me...i seriously wonder if a guy will ever like me...isn't there something wrong with that whole deal? or is there just something very very very wrong with me?  

man i dont know!!!!!! well i've been driving around!! thats a big accomplishment..and i have been going to the gym alot except for this week cause of finals and stuff....man i love turbo kickboxing...i think its the greatest thing ever invented! that is the highlight of my week...it seriously is... i get to go thursday...im excited...so after this crazy week im hard core gym! i have been up to this week...anyway...

well enough of this stuff :] bye

hellllooooo... break is over =( that sucks! but i will live, because i want to go on with my life, and end this crap called 'high school'  but yesssss... so nothing much has been going on!

i am a feminist! i shouldn't want a guy, thats the AnTi feminist way isnt it? well i guess 'needing ' a guy is anti feminist, but wanted is pretty close i would guess... so im not going to waste my time on liking some stupid idiot guy that only talks to me when i talk to him, u feel me? but its not that easy!!! but it should be, but its not... thats why its called a 'crush' (remember? from 16 candles!) and not somthing happy like  a 'lollypop' or somthing... so im going to be anti-guy and pro-bryana for a while... go to the gym (guy-m) and study my brains out to get zero C's and such...

i love simon and garfunkel :]

these last two days have been good days! so thats good... yesterday what did i do? ooh i went to ross and got my formal dress! hahaha i had to go cheap for stupid formal...well actual its not stupid, it'll probably be as much fun, or funner then proM! well....i think prom will be funner cause of the limo and what not...well the dress is a deep deep purple, and its strapless, and its long, its pretty :] i luv it... then i went to michelles to work on the project, and we all thought we were gonna have to BS and pray for a C...but we found all the info we needed! so that made my day! i was so happy... then i had piano, then came home for a while and then had yoga! which i loVed...i loved this yoga class at this new gym better then the other gym...

then today... i woke up and started doin my WWI thing...then went to the gym, and worked with the personal trainer....man it was hard...she doesnt know what shes doing, cause she keeps having me do all this hard stuff that im wayyy to...unprepared or really capable of doin what she wants me to do... so now im super sore...so tomorrow i probably wont even be able to get out of bed! not fun...then a friend came over and watched napoleon dynamite...that was fun...so now im jus chillen...tomorrow the girls in my group for the WWI thing are comin over to work on it...so im hopin we'll finish and that'll be that!

so i think im startin to get over that person from before... well mostly because theres no point in liking someone thats just kinda there...kinda, u kno? meh...i got over him for a bit before! so im guessin i can so do it again...well i hope so!  so whatever...im bein optimistic.....OOH the kicker is i had one of my dreams about him...and there was a kiss in the dream, which is really realy annoying... but it didnt take me long to get over it...hahah so there u go! and im on my way...but i dont know where im going! (paul simon of course)...peace

yo! wow i haven't written in here in a whILE! things have happened since then...

i got a car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally...but man i suck at driving... so i wont be ddriving alone for a month or two...thats fine with me cause i dont trust myself driving yet...haha...sad...but true

its halfway through winterbreak...! im okay with that because i want to get through january! i have this annoying term paper due the day after we get back from break...then the crazy college project i still got alot to do! and finals and gross stuff...

then feb.5th is formal! so thats something to look forward too.....i wanna go with a certain person, but im  PoSiTivE thats not gonna happen... i talked to him like last week on the phone...but it was a long conversation, then yesterday i talked to him on the phone for an even longer time... i really hate those long phone conversatioNs! they KilL me it happens with that one other stupid person...hahah, its probably some physical disorder or something... man but after those convo's for a day or two immajorly crushin over that certain person! so today was day 1...so just gotta get through day 2...hahahah then he mite come over this week hahahaha so that'll offset my system i have going...

i got a gym membership for christmas! and 4 personal training sessions...they're so cool...i've already have had 1, then i have the 2nd on tuesday...and tomorrow they have this yoga class... maybe ill get all yoga'ed up again...its fun :]

so this past week i went to the mall 4 times, and the movies twice, coldstone once haha...then today i was suposed to go to dland but that fell through...:[ haha me and hil got all the way to dl, then we turned around and went to ihop...which was very good...then she came over for like an hour and watched eddie izzard, i feel like i bore her, meh well i am pretty boring, thats probably why im not going with certain people to certain formals! then i went and saw oceans 12...CoNFuSING! o well...george clooney is so hot!!!  o geeze im so pathetic haha...i seriously do have a thing for older guys...why cant guys my age like me????? its seriously embarrasing and depressing